Febtober.
my social life is manic-depressive.
I'll go for weeks where I am never home. Each night a different bar, a different group of friends, drunken overnight jams, rehearsals, shopping sprees. I'll actually call people. emails. IMs.
Then for days, weeks it seems - I'll be asleep every night at 9p. I don't leave my house. I don't want to be dressed. And I certainly don't want to answer the phone.
and occasionally, my blog entries sound like they are written by Christopher Walken
So folks, I'm sorry that I fall into random hibernation periods. My only possible explanation
Once something consumes me - it's all I am capable of focusing on. Historically, consumables have included: a.) certain people 2.) a hobby, such as my 'top secret archival music project' D.) cleaning my house and 5.) absolute no other human involved personal time.
Sometimes it is hard to believe, but I am quite introverted. and neurotic. For anyone who's heard of the Meyers Briggs Jung Keirsey whatever the hell its called these days test - I've been testing as an INFP for years. (Actually, in high school I was INTP. I've actually managed to spawn some emotions as I've grown older.)
Just took the test again the other day when I was home sick. I came up a solid I N and P and 50% F / 50% T So the test confirms my suspicions that I'm only thinking half of the time.
So back to my orig sililoquoy.
What I'm trying to say - is that, I take an extra long time to de-compress. I figure that I require approx. 1 day of seclusion for every 6 hours of time spent socialising. So, 2 nights of bar hopping per week = a full 24 hr period of alone time (not necessarily consecutive hours) needed.
September was Birthday Month. and it was fun! I went out w/ the gals, I drank heavily, I shopped, I went on a road trip. CT boyfriend came here. Sang my last mass at St. Joe's (but thats sad and I'm trying not to think about it) and then Whew! was I tired. The last week was spent in utter isolation. And it was wonderful. Sunday I laid in bed all day and read a book cover to cover. (actually re-read, its a great book that I forgot about) "Like a hole in the head" by Jen Banbury. Thanks, Mic.
and now we've launched into October. My second favourite month of the year! and I PROMISE that I will call. I PROMISE that I'll go out. I have a lot of friends to catch up w/. That is my October Priority. Trust that I have not forgotten about all a youse. and thank you so much for your unending patience and understanding.
However - the big news is that there are a few new projects (consumables) in the works. One involves the starry world of all things Stoney. and the second involves getting my act together. literally. Stay tuned.
2 Comments:
it's interesting to find others in the world who mimic the same behavioral patterns as I. or perhaps I'm mimicing yours? hmmm. must be the spytech gear. I think my patterns are a little more drawn out. you go for weeks at a time. ahhh, I go months in my little fits of antisocialitarianism. is that even really a word? perhaps it's not anti-social. I'm not against being social. it's just, trying to choose to be social when I have something positive to say, rather than just being sarcastic and pessimistic. sometimes I'm tired of the wolrd and it's bright flashy lights. but then there's those beautiful moments, which I wouldn't trade for anything, where I see beauty in people, places and things. speaking of which, I didn't know you have IM. look for me. but I agree, there's times in which every human, and alien, needs to be alone by and with themselves just to move onward. sometimes upward.
by the way, happy birthday, a month or so late. and what is this book that mr nicosia had some part in you reading? "Like A Hole In The Head". sounds like a conversation I've had with him in the past.
and flattered I be by the starry comments. hope you received the cd. remember, they're demos. I've had some great critiques so far. haha. one friend, didn't like one song on the demo. not one. but that's cool. and another person, only liked when I was singing without any sort of emotion. it makes me wonder, why, if I was to sing without any emotion, would that do me any good at all? the third critique was extremely insightful and made me want to lock myself in a room with great musicians for years on end.
ok, I think I've rambled way too much. do drop me a line when you are done with your isolation period. perhaps we can have a little anti-isolation party.
WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
stars & such,
stoney C
Stoney, my dearest - I so have enjoyed your comments! But may I suggest that you create your own blog perhaps? You have so much to say, and such a nice way of saying it.
Hugs and such,
Chrissy
Post a Comment
<< Home